The Pact

DOUBLE DOWN

I do what I want
I say what I want
I wear what I want

I'm walking away
You know I don't mind
I chill by myself

You know I'm flying high
I'm way up in the sky
Don't even have to try

‘Cause I can see everything

Oh don't you dare
Go and push me around
'Cause I'll double down

'Cause I don't care
No not at all
And I never fall

And every time I roll the dice
Snake eyes never come as a surprise

Dismantle you
With your own tools
No time to explain

You know I'm flying high
I'm way up in the sky
Don't even have to try

‘Cause I can see everything
You ain't ever gonna get me down

PLANETARIUM

I want to take you to the planetarium
I want to show you how ugly the sky is

Have you ever faked sick before
'Cause I'm faking it right now

Can you feel it
Is it obvious
Am I so obvious

Welcome to the aquarium
Welcome to me staring at you

Have you ever faked sick before
'Cause I'm faking it right now
Can you feel itIs it obvious
Am I so obvious

Bleh bleh bleh bleh
Bleh bleh bleh bleh
Bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh bleh
Bleh bleh bleh bleh

Have you ever faked sick before
'Cause I'm faking it right now

Can you feel it
Is it obvious
Am I so obvious

BIRTHDAY CAKE

If I asked you do you want to die
You'd probably just lie and say no no no

And if you asked me do I feel sick
I'd probably try to trick you
And say how I wish I did

And that's how I know that it's starting up again
Put your pedal to the metal and break my arm
Or you can break my legs if you want me to stay put
Underneath the covers I don't care about anything

But hey I would sit upon your birthday cake
I'll take what I can take and you can get what you get
‘Cause it's your party treat me how you want
Your mother and your aunt don't care for me anyway
No your mother and your aunt don't care for me anyway

But I never thought it would happen to me
You cut my hair off in my sleep and put it in the kitchen sink
I never thought it would happen to me
Well you treat me like a little toy and made me do a dance

If you want to we can make a pact
But it will be an act it doesn't mean anything

Tie me with balloon strings to the floor
I don't care anymore you can do what you want
No I don't care anymore you can do what you want

THE HAUNTING

I'm not afraid 
Of the ghosts 
In your head

I'd like to kiss them 
Bring them back 
From the dead

Lay them down in a bed 
Just like I said and so I did

I had a dream
I was haunting you too
So I'll kiss myself

Split my tongue into two
Why not try something new
For you I'll try

Thrashing around 
In my sleep
Like a sick child

I'll bend and break
This fever dream
A little girl that smiles
As if to say too bad

We will wake up
Without tongues in our mouths  

Never understood
What those words were about
Now all we can do is shout
Till we pass out again

Not sure if I am asleep or awake
So I'll treat this body
Like I think that it's a fake
And see how much it can take

FEVER DOGGS

You climb up and you fall back down
And you come around and it's never any good
I cook for you and you clean for me
And our mouths are filled with rotten words
You call yourself lazy and I'd never argue with you
I call myself crazy and you'd never argue with me

You bore your way into me
Until we're one big happy family
Wicked clean necessity is never any good
Fever doggs and rabid cats
Those are our pets and that is that
Let's feed them till they're sick and fat

It's never any good at all
Always bad 
Never good

SOME KIND OF COWGIRL

Ate the words inside my head
Spat them up into a cup
Lock me up just lock me up

Faces change naturally
Yours is melting off your bones
It is falling to the floor

I think bad things
I host bad thoughts
I'm only kind of sorry

But if you took me to the zoo
I'd be some kind of cowgirl

I am crawling underground
Wish that you could meet me there
Sick and foaming at the mouth

Sometimes I disgust myself
But man you look so much like me
You look like everybody else

I'm sorry for my jokes about dying
I said that I'm not afraid
But I'm lying

And now I feel lonelier
Than I did before

Do you want to hack me up
Sometimes I so wish you would
I am not scared of your blade

I will bite down on your hand
And you can lead me around town
You are not scared of my teeth

I eat bad things
Cough up bad thoughts
I'm never very sorry

But if you left me in the sky
I'd be some kind of cowgirl

PEACH

Silly sandbox
Stupid scarecrow

Jack-o-lantern
Chupacabra

Sick menorah
Candelabra

Tiny tantrums
Elves and giants

Little turtle
Kindergarten

You were so mean to me then
But no one is mean to me now

Welcome to the danger-zone
If you shut up I'll toss you a bone
I heard you like your little crate
I think I'm winning this debate

But damn you've got the sharpest teeth
And I am soft as a peach

WALK AWAY

I'm tired of feeling like I
Am living for somebody else
I'm unrehearsed sometimes it hurts
To watch you love yourself

Wish I could go back
To an unknown yesterday
When I was all alone
No one telling me to stay

'Cause I'm sick of feeling like I'm living for someone else
Sometimes it breaks me down to watch you blindly love yourself

But I can't
So I don't
And I won't
Walk away

We've been through this before but what is it to you
You're so obsessed with the reflection staring back at you

You don't see me
I'm standing in the street
My arms are in the air
I will admit defeatI always admit defeat

'Cause I'm sick of feeling like I'm living for someone else
You know it breaks me down to watch you blindly love yourself

But I can't
So I don't
And I won't
Walk away

FOR ROBIN

In 1922 your mother cried
For the first time that day
And it was glorious
In Jackson no mistake was made

Her attention always a cloud away
It turned you into a clown
You sorted through her hair
You wore her slippers
Tugged on her nightgown

But it wasn't a shame
It suited you quite well
They took you for all they could
A mollusk with no shell

And in the sandbox
You weren't anyone
You kept things to yourself
Deep inside your chest
A want to please everyone else

In 1982 your eyes were blue
As they stared out at the crowd
And they would stay that way
Your jokes were good
Your voice was loud

But it wasn't a shame
It suited you quite well
They took you for all they could
A mollusk with no shell

Your skin grew raw 
And you didn't speak to anyone
Always a cloud away
The rainbow fell to the ground
But Randy all the children still say

NEW RED PANTS

I've got new red pants
Got them from a stranger yeah

I look so attractive
That it could kill you
It could kill me too

I've got scoliosis
I need Tylenol

Help me break this fever
Or throw me a curve ball
I'll swing at that curve ball yeah 

I've got bad tinnitus
Drives me up the wall

Leave me underwater
I don't want to hear it
I don't want to hear at all

I'm not into romance
I am into blood

Won't you bring them a cup dear
They're gonna let mine
Just like Joan of Arc

I've got tendentious
But God I need my hands

Won't you grant me this one
I'll make a trade with you
You can have my red pants

ON MY MIND

You're on my mind again
And I don't know why
Might be the seasons changing
I see it in the sky

You remind me of the summer
I know you dig that heat
But you're so cold in my memory
I accepted defeat

I used to feel so lonely 
In my parents' house
You said you knew the feeling
I wish we could go back there now

I gave you my favorite sweater
I was afraid you'd think it was cheap
But you didn't think anything
You put it on and went to sleep

And I don't know why 
You're coming up in my mind again
I thought that time would make things fade away
But today I'm thinking about way back when

Wish we could start again

You used to kiss me with candy in your mouth
You know I loved that taste
It's been a bunch of years now
But there's something about you I just can't replace

I'm reading your letters
So much left to say
But they stayed in the closet
Pretended it was okay

And I don't know why 
You're coming up in my mind again
I thought that time made things fade away
But today I'm thinking about way back when

Will this ever end 

TRAVEL BUG

I'm a man
I'm a machine

Cut me as deep as you want
I won't feel anything

And I'm alone
In my mind

I take it as it comes
I don't look I don't find

I'll cut that tree down by myself
Build you a house to live in with somebody else

Tell it twice
Maybe more

I am confident 
I've heard it all before

Got dealt a hand
And rolled the dice

Snake eyes every time
It comes as no surprise

I could lay down 
On the ground

'Cause I'm so a part
Of everything around

I'm a man
I'm a machine

My hands are rhino skin
My eyes are cold and mean

And I'm alone
But I don't mind

I feel better when my flaws
Aren't underlined