Everyone Else

Like A Child Hiding Behind Your Tombstone

Drink seltzer smoke weed when you can’t sleep
Think about shooting birds
Everyone has got a violent streak
I think my face looks like glass
But my body feels plastic
 
Melt me into a bottle
I wish that I was a baby sucking on myself
Boogie down to the water
I thought that maybe
I could be the lake’s daughter
Because I float like an infant inside of it
Weightless in the lake
It’s got nothing to take from me
 
I feel like a child
Hiding behind your tombstone
But the graveyard’s not lonely
Plus who doesn’t love a good cemetery
 
I feel like a fetus
Because my eyes are not open
And I don't have fingernails
Can't claw my way out of anyone 
Or anything
 
Hold me under the water
My lungs are filling with plankton
But the lake is not lonely

Horseshoe Crab

I learned that hunger is a symptom 
Of adopting bad behavior
I bit my tongue last night 
Woke up with blood on my pillow
I woke up thirsty
Words make less sense to me these days 
Faces look flat and unfamiliar 
Do you want to rest forever? 
Underwater it gets better
When I get better
I’ll treat you like I used to
I’ll do the things you want me to
Sometimes I feel like I’m a seahorse 
Sometimes I think that I’m a horseshoe crab 
I don’t have anything in common with myself
Except that I came from the sea 
Like everyone else did 
But it is so unfamiliar now
Everything is so unfamiliar now

Last Time I Saw My Horse

 
I still remember we were in the ocean
I was scared
You were dumb
It ate us both

Vomiting our bones onto the seashore
Knee caps
Spinal plates
Cranium
Clavicle
It was magical

And on the racing tracks
Wilbur he is sleeping
He is scared 
He is sore
I think about him 
And he thinks about me
No one knows
Crossing hooves
 
Later in the bargain bin
I thought I saw some dentures
Horsey teeth
Human teeth

I heard a rumor you were frozen underwater
Molecules
Clusterfuck

Or did they grind you down when you were only sleeping?
Making you
Elmer’s glue.
 
I heard a rumor
That horses last forever
It was false
Animals turn to dust

Trial & Error

I told you once you were my son
Because you grew inside me
But who says size has an effect
On what I'll never tell to you?
You told me once I was a child
As my fists pound your mattress
I'm not accustomed to this trial and error
Trial don't try me out
 
The way you narrow your eyes at me
Suggests that there's some tension.
I don't regret my upper-handed stubborn ways
Hand me all of it
And don't come down until your chemicals give you permission
That's how it works
That's how it works
But sometimes things don't work at all

PIGPEN

You have got an open mouth
And I have got an open wound
Want to suck the poison out?
Will you suck the poison out?

And I would spread my wings
If they weren’t so goddamn heavy
And I would spread my wings
If they weren’t coated in honey
 
But I would wash your hands for you
I’m sure that I could get them clean
I won’t be gentle anymore
I’ll use expensive soap
I’ll scrub aggressively
 
There’d be no more germs
You would be so clean
You would be clean
The dirt would fade away
You will be clean

And I would spread my wings
If they weren’t so goddamn heavy
And I would spread my wings
If they weren’t coated in honey
 
Being dirty is practical
All the girls leave you alone
When you’re sticking to yourself
You don’t want nobody else

And I would spread my wings
If they weren’t so goddamn heavy
And I would spread my wings
If they weren’t coated in honey
 
Sucking flies into your throat
Coughing up nests on your chest
We could live together there
Never fly to anywhere

Rotten Pumpkin

But I'm not sure you’ve got it in you
You're boring into my body
You're boring me with your stories
I'm not listening
 
I just want you to feel it
But you
You're not a raw nerve like me
No one knows
They think that I live in a shell
But I'm soft water
I'll make you sick 
‘Cause I'm soft water
 
Reach inside of me
And scoop out my seeds
Rotten pumpkin
Do not waste me
 
You like to scare little children
And I always felt like I was eleven
Gum stuck in my hair
And candy in your mouth
I know you love it
You know I love it
We know we love it
 
When you choke me
I feel like your puppet
When you choke me
I feel like a bird underwater

Pseudo Culture

 
Baby pictures on the wall
But who notices things like that anymore?
Take your pills and go to school
Pseudo-culture fucks me all the time
All the time
But what time is it?
 
I heard you got out
I heard you got married
I heard some other things I cannot legally repeat right now
I heard your hair grew 
I heard you wear makeup
I heard you make up all of the stories you tell
 
You’re immune to all my shit
But sometimes it seems like it still gets to you
Do I get to you?
We could play it off like nothing will happen
Since nothing really ever happens around here
We could play it off like we never failed

Mud

I’ll eat the mud
I’ll suck the sun out of the sky
Puncture the clouds
When I’m throwing down
It won’t make a sound
Below the bed
Under the ground
When I fought the night
It stayed asleep
It didn’t move
The dark is cheap
 
I’m braiding hair
Braiding it well
My father taught me
And now I can tell
When I’m asleep
And when I’m awake
I’m not afraid
This dirt is fake

SLEEP EATER

You’ve been talking in your sleep
You keep me up all night
You keep me up all night

Ambien makes you sleep eat
And so you ate all night
Yeah you ate all night

Telling jokes that lack a punchline
I laughed my head off
Were you dreaming of me?
Were you dreaming about me dreaming?
 
Cereal in the shape of ghosts
Melting in your milk
Melting in your mouth

Fruit loops look like inner tubes
In your grandma’s pool were you floating around?
Were you dreaming about the graveyard?
If you were I’ll sleepwalk there with you
I dig tombstones too
 
Eagles wearing women’s shoes
Stomping in the sky
Scuffing up the clouds
Dogs turn into other dogs
In your neighbor’s yard
They were barking around
You were there shapeshifting too
Now I trust you less than I did before
But it’s not even your face anymore

Milking The Snake

I am milking the snake
She’s extracting her fangs
She’s secreting some drops of venom
Into my little jar

She said she’d rather sleep
I said I’d rather play
And I do not care about her feelings
I don’t care about keeping her comfortable
 
She is shedding her skin
Into my little hand
I am milking the snake and
I am having an awesome time doing it
 
As she slithers away
Back into her little cage
She turns and she hisses at me that I am rude
I am rude
I am always so rude to her