Of Course You Do

Cubicle

I try my best 
to hide that I care 
that you got me wrong
you really got me wrong

I walk around
the light hurts my eyes
and I’m falling deeper and deeper into the void

I punch some holes 
and pick at my nails
will somebody please push some tacks into my eyes? 

How big is your nest? 
Is there room for me? 
Will you regurgitate some worms into my mouth?

Crockpot

Some men purchase real dolls to fill the void
but she don’t finish dinner and her expression never changes
don’t shake hands with the lonely kids ‘cause I hear that shit’s contagious

yeah

animals in my bed 
animals in my bed animals in the street
I like cats 
do you like cats? 
Of course you do you sassy motherfucker
my stomach hurts 
does your stomach hurt? 
Do our stomachs hurt together? 
I feel pain
do you feel pain? 
Will this pain last forever?

yeah

I don’t think the flavor packet makes it taste much different
you said that you knew who you were 
but I did not know what you meant

yeah 

I’m a devil 
you’re a devil
we’re all devils Mary 
you love Satan but you don’t know her
and sometimes she gets scary

Homewreck Wifey

I saw what I did and I said I would quit 
but then I got tired of waiting 
for everything scraping me to fizzle out

so I built you a vehicle hung at the ends of my arms
I want to be useful so useful
I want to be useful to you

I brought my love down 
from the cupboard upstairs

I filled up a cup with my insides 
and placed it on the ground for our pets

but you called me a liar
oh yeah you straight called me a fraud

you said I was sick I was sick I was sick
I loved them more than you

Magnets Pt. 2

You cannot protect 
that which you cannot control
I lit a candle for you
but somebody blew it out

he comes to me in my dreams 
and tells me that he's alright
that he's just been hiding out 
somewhere there is no light

aww yeah that'd be nice

and if you took it back
I wouldn't feel so uncertain
I wouldn't feel so uncertain 

that when your body hit the earth 
it opened up and swallowed you
she kept you safe in her hot center
and always tucked you in at night

and when you woke up nervous she said
baby you're inside of me
you're safe inside my orange womb
there's no reason to worry

they bought him magnets 
to form into different shapes
small spheres of metal 
always carefully composed

he's making hexagons
he's making perfect squares
he's making triangles
he's making cylinders

and in the junkyard
occult of robot screams
they give him orders 
like rabbits from his dreams

they're laying eggs now
and hatching fever spells
it heats him slowly
his blood is thinner now

The Couch Incident

I'm not afraid of the ghosts in your head
I heard them say they won't torture you anymore
upset the blanket all torn 
as you wish you were dead

well I've seen it all come out her mouth and her nose 
her wrists are two rivers spilling onto her clothes

feels like
what does it feel like? 

I counted your lies once 
and had a list down to my ankles 
all cut up and carved out just like

take it 
take it out

bitter white pills they don't even do justice to hide 
what she's made of inside they just kill her all over
that killer that killer that killer that killer 

I'm biding my time like she's biting her tongue 
but I'm eating her words and reminding her she was young
she was young once

Juice

My name is Leah and I drink juice 
every morning when I wake up 
but it’s no use I’m unwell
can you tell that I’m sick in the brain?

3:11 I look at the clock 
everyday it’s the same
and I can’t make it stop
it’s not right
but can you F-I-G-U-R-E it out? 

I miss you when you’re gone
but resent you when you’re near
I come outside of myself 
and whisper into my own ear I’m unwell 

and I’m a hamster in a plastic ball
and I am running toward your fireplace
chemicals are melted in my fur
no whiskers left upon my face

you pick me up and then you put me back down
I want a piggyback ride all over the town
do your knees hurt? 
Do your knees hurt? 

7:30am

I'm gonna leave you anyway
I'm gonna leave you anyway
I'm gonna leave you anyway

you're gonna walk right out that door
you're gonna walk right out that door
I'm gonna watch you walk away

I want my face to be untouched
I want my face to be untouched
I don't want nobody's mark

I want to sleep and dream alone
I want to sleep and dream alone
I want to fade into the dark

carve it all up
you'll find nothing 
to put upon your plate

have no logic
too much reason
it's an admirable trait

carbonated feelings bubble up 
every morning when I wake
upchuck suck up 
best take your vitamins
I'm doing what I can for my body's sake

Magnets Pt. 1

Look out below
it's coming up for you
it's coming up for all of us
it will swallow us whole
it will dissolve all our bones
don't be scared to turn yourself around
no one would blame you 
for taking the easy way out
he is watching the X files again
no wonder he's creeped out
doesn't trust anyone these days

No Eye Candy

When you walked in the room 
I thought my luck had changed
my luck had changed too soon 
I saw you onstage with a snake
navel dripping wet through my plasma screen
take one take two take three
take take take take

but all you said to me was
no eye candy

every night before I go to bed 
I like to read a book 
so that my mind will stop thinking 
about the things that I stress about

I did not have implants
I just had a growth spurt

no eye candy

Beowulf

I feel you now
have you been hiding all this time? 
I feel you now
have you been hiding the whole time? 

I’m hungry now
why won’t you let me get my fill? 
I’m hungry now
why won’t you let me consume everything? 

Beowulf was one sick puppy
always went on brutal murder sprees of sad old beasts
Beowulf was one sad puppy
wrecked the homes of all the creatures living in the woods

Grendel she was one sick puppy
couldn’t help the way she liked to rip things limb from limb
Grendel she was one sad puppy
couldn’t help the way she always killed the party every time